By admin / January 9, 2015 / 0 Comment
I often times, okay, really most of the time, feel so incredibly ordinary. I don’t have a rags to riches story or a terrible life story in which I was truly hurt. I haven’t had a terminal illness. I have siblings who I love and who tolerate me! I’m a working mom, cooking for my son still at home and doing the regular stuff of life. The past month I have wondered if it really matters…can my story matter for others if I don’t have a testimony that will bring you to tears when I tell it?
I have ventured into the world of having my own website, blogging and now maybe podcasts. Why? Someone asked me that and my answer was connection. I want to inspire people and connect them and have them know that THEY matter, that their lives, in their homes, doing laundry matters. I know, this is a true contradiction, because if I think MY ordinary doesn’t matter, then why do I want them to know theirs does?
Sitting in church this morning, I had a HUGE revelation: vulnerable moment for me about Facebook! I resisted Facebook for a long time, only to have to succumb to it because of the need for a business page. Ugh!!! Long story short, I find myself spending more time there, watching videos, looking at pictures, reading stories. I really, really don’t like this. Why do I do this? This morning it hit me – CONNECTION. In my stage of life currently, I am alone a lot, and quite isolated; and as an extrovert, relationships matter, so my brain needs that daily relationship piece and looking at Facebook fills a void.
So what does God want me to do with that space instead? Remember, my life is ordinary and I don’t have a story of dramatic rescue, incredible hurt, rags to riches, or cured from a disease. My story, my life is just my life, ordinary. I want to connect people though, have them be inspired to be better and glorify God in their daily life.
Michele has a story that has great tragedy and struggle, it is a heart-wrenching and beautiful story. I am in awe of her vulnerability, courage, wisdom, choice to be prayerful, and her summer hiatus where she withdrew from everything to be with her family. How does she do this? At the core, she lives life ordinary too – we all do.
Ordinary Lesson: Ask, seek, knock
Luke 11: 9-10: “So I say to you: Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; the who seeks finds; and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened.
I was having a “low” week, in my mind and heart and since I assumed God didn’t know, I spent quite a bit of time describing it, as if He didn’t already know every single thing that was going on in my life in the past weeks. I wrote in my journal, talking about my loneliness, having to do everything by myself, the transition back to school job frustrations. I asked for, well, lots of things in my prayer, but my biggest request, was that he would show me something that gave me an indication that He was working on it.
You know what happens next, right? The week goes by, I’m not paying attention, just doing ordinary life. Then my dearest friend mentioned Luke 11. My quiet Sunday morning gave me time to look back at my requests, looking through the lens of Luke 11.
Upon reflection, wouldn’t you know God gave more than a few signs that He had been busy on my behalf the past week. I know I shouldn’t be surprised; this is where I really hope that God has a great sense of humor and patience with me when I’m continually surprised when I see what He’s doing. He provided people, relationships, to show me scripture, to speak into my life about places to connect women, to give me laughter with my son to show me that time with him is EXTRAORDINARY, and new people to reassure me that what I’m doing is making a difference.
I feel ordinary, but I’m definitely not ordinary because God is my maker, creator and HE IS all about the extraordinary.
Ask and it will be given to you; Seek and you will find; Knock and the door will be opened to you!